Hey ya'll! Just wanted to check in to let you know I'm still around...just so much to do and so little time and not to mention my brain is in a fog! I can't seem to function very well since my mom's been in the hospital. I'm being served up a nice full bowl of stress. First...and I want to advise you...if you do not like my whinning or rants...stop reading because I feel a ranting and whinning coming up.
So on Friday, May 1st I got a call from my mom that she was coming home. Cool I thought...I guess she's well enough NOW to actually come home. Ha...NO! So I go to pick her up and the nurse was showing me how to change her gauze from the operation when it gets dirty and what not and told me what I had to help her with etc. etc... Ok...so I thought if the nurse is OK with her being released...I guess she IS ok to go home. So here we are...my mom could NOT even put on her clothes without clamoring in pain...nurse says..."oh...that's normal". Ok...I know pain is normal after surgery...I've had it myself. So I help get her dressed...combed her hair and put on her socks and shoes. Great! So now we're waiting almost 30 minutes for the wheelchair transportation to come and my mom is on the phone with my uncle. He told her she was crazy to be going home. He had a surgery on his back himself and told her she needs at least a couple more weeks in there to get the therapy needed. So my moms like "oh, I've been walking and I'm fine".
Now...transportation comes and he took her to my car and seeing as how I was having trouble getting my mom into the car with a bad back myself...he just left us...NO HELP AT ALL...at 9 o'clock at night and it was raining...slowly drops...but still!!!!! AMAZING! So here I am crying in pain and asking God for his power to send me the strength I needed to get her in...cause trust me...this lady is tiny...BUT SHE'S HEAVY!!! So finally I was able to get her in and as I sat at the sterring wheel I got a nervous attack. I was shaking and crying because I knew she wasn't ready. Something told me she lied to get out and since it's in "her rights" she could ask for a leave. Anywho...after relaxing myself and taking in a few deep breaths I drove us home. Getting her in was hard...but getting her out was actually easier. I put a step stool down for her (I have an Expedition) and she got down with no problem...walked to the first step at out door with her walker with no problem...got up the first small step and then came the second small step...she couldn't do it anymore. She could NOT take the next step into the house because she was in pain.
So here I am once again nervous as hell that I couldn't get her up. And mind you...no one else here at our home could help me...my dad is 87 and could have easily fell on her instead of helping...and then there's my kids! Oscar was at work...so I had to call him and tell him to come home because it was an emergency! So here is my mom still not being able to get into the house...not even with MY help carrying her and so she decided she would just crawl instead. SO she crawled in as slowly as she could and then stopped cause she couldn't go anymore. What seemed like an eternity later...Oscar arrived and we BOTH tried pulling her up at least to a sitting posotion to the couch but she was just too heavy and we were afraid of hurting her more AND not just that...but hurting her cut!!! I sad to Oscar...if we can at least get her into bed...I can work from there...but we couldn't! She tried many times to get up again but said she couldn't...that's when she told me she lied to the doctor that she was ready to come home and that she had a nurse at home to care for her! WHAT??? Was she INSANE??? She said she lied because she was worried about my dad and she missed my kids! I about almost collapsed from the nerves when she told me that!
So Oscar decided...'you know what...she has to go back'. Since we couldn't pick her up...we had to call for an ambulance. They saw how she was and one of the EMT's told her to NEVER pull a stunt like that...that what good was she gonna do by coming home and getting into the risk of getting WORST instead of better for her husband. So finally she said crying to them that she was sorry and to please take her back. SOOOO...she's there again and this time I was very strict with her doctor who released her. I even told him that he could be sued for not checking her thru to make sure she WAS ok...but my mom is of right mind and she had her intentions soooo *rolls eyes*...still! So after I calmed down and was able to speak to him in a calm state...I asked him if there was any way he can help me either find a nurse to come to the house to help giver her the physical therapy she needs here OR to put her in a temporary nursing home. So he said those were good choices knowing I can't give her what she needs right now...not only because I also have a bad back...but because I wouldn't be able to focus on just her because of my dad, kids, and home responsabilities. So hopefully today we find out what's gonna happen and we'll go from there! I'm actually hopeing for a nurse to come here because I have NO IDEA how we'll be able to afford a home right now...a nurse to come and get paid...that's cheaper. So...now you see why I haven't been on here much! I have made cards when I have the time to just sit and de-stress myself...but I just haven't had the energy to come on here and actually post them.
So...if you read all of that...WOW! I thank you for putting up with it! Seriously! I wish I had something happy to show you...but soon...I promise! Thank you so much for listening and I'm still praying and I know that this is being put in my path to see how strong I really am...yes Dear Lord...I know it's you putting this in my path...and I thank you for it! It's making me a much more responsible woman and teaching me to have lots more patience. Yes I'm stressed...but I'm still here! Thank you Lord!
P.S. I have some used stamp sets for sale right now. They are in great condition and I could really use the help selling them right about now. The link is just below the header. I'll probably be adding more stuff...but for now...that's all I have. If you want a picture of the actual set...wood and rubber...please let me know. Believe me...it's actually EMBARASSING to me to have to add this P.S....but I have to humble myself to actually post it because I'll need every cent right now to pay for my mom's care. Her MediCal alone wont cover it all. PLEASE...do NOT feel any pressure to buy if you don't need to or really want to. I know how the economy is right now...I just wanted to post it JUST IN CASE you know. Thanks and HUGS!