2.20.2010

Joni, Katie, my Ho's, and ALL my crafting blog buddies...

I EFFIN' LOVE YOU!!!

I have a HUGE lump in my throat. No...I'm not sick...just completely overwhelmed at the love and support I'm getting through blog land...my FAMILY! More specifically my immediate stamping family...Joni, my Ho's, and my little sister...Katie!

I am overcome by a loss of words on how to express my gratitude to ALL of you who have been there...not only by purchasing Mood for Rock or sending me supplies as a gift...those are just extra blessings...but for being there spiritually when my spirits were down! How can I ever thank ANYONE for that! That is priceless. You guys...my crafting community friends are doing more for me than what my own flesh and blood relatives have not done since my mom's passing.

I remember very well at my moms viewing how they were blatantly lying to my face saying..."we won't leave you alone, we must be a tighter family now and love each other in Gaby's name (my mom)". Oh really...where are you now? It's been 8 months since my mom passed away...and I have not heard one peep from my family. Birthdays for their kids have come and gone...and not one invitation like there use to be before when my dear mother was alive. Thanksgiving passed...nothing...Christmas passed...nothing...New years...my birthday...NADA! I've called...but no answers and no call backs. Ok...that's how it is now... I kinda had a feeling that would happen...being the adopted daughter and what not. From what I know...they still keep in touch with my sister...my moms real daughter. That's the thanks I get for spending SO MANY YEARS putting my mom before myself. I was there for my mom every single day in every single way I can think of until her very last day. Even on her very last day my aunt and sister were asking me about the burial...if I had everything set up...if I had bought her outfit...etc...not allowing me to spend some time alone with her as she laid in the hospital bed lifeless to say my last goodbye and have my last moments with her. If that's family...then I rather NOT have them in my life.

BUT then all of YOU guys come together and do such amazing things for me??? Yes...you are all my family now. Asides from my husband, kids, and in-laws...you are all the family that I have. That's why I treasure me being online so much...because I would be lost without you guys! I know it's said that you can't truly be someones friend when you haven't even met them face to face...but BULL CRAP...I feel I know you all in my heart and that's all that matters. For obvious reasons I see that you all feel the same because who else does this for someone they don't know face to face? Amazing special people only! That's what you ALL are!

Just when I thought I was alone...MY FRIENDS...MY SISTERS...especially Joni...set up this awesome of a blog hop...in MY NAME? ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? She said she had something in store...and I was afraid...very afraid...lol...but I had NO idea it would be of THIS magnitude! The names on the list...my sisters...WOW! You have NO IDEA how much this has touched my heart and lifted my spirits. I mean...why me...I'm not special...I'm just Gabby for Christs sake! A crazy almost non-functional basket case...with a HUGE heart though. ;) This huge heart of mine though is filled with love and joy as I sit here typing this. I'm still at a loss for words! Yeah...I know...I already wrote a news article and I'm still at a loss? LOL! Words however can not express my love and gratitude for you all...sincerely...

Thank you so much Joni...thank you for putting this blog hop in my name...I'm not worthy! Thank you to all my sisters along the way...and my new sisters for hopping along. I am truly grateful! To me the true rockstars are YOU GUYS!

Of course...I can NOT forget Katie! It all started with her when she felt it in her heart to have one of her illustrators come up with an image in my name...to my person! Because of Katie and the great community who have bought Moody for Rock and the coordinating sentiments/word art...we were able to add food to our refrigerator up until mid March. YOU have put food in my childrens mouths. Oscar actually cried and felt less of a man...but I told him to look at it this way...that this amazing blessing that was bestowed upon us can one day be OUR way to pay back and to NOT feel less of. I told him he's not alone...there are many families out there going through what we're going through...only we see it as this because we're the ones going through it. I'm a true believer in KARMA...I really am...so I know one day we'll pay back when the payback is due.

In the past I have been the giver...the one who tried to help out friends when they were in need...even if it was just with prayers and just being there...this is a way of my KARMA coming back to me. Just when I thought I did something bad in the past to deserve what we're going through...this blessing comes along to redeem my feeling. One day...ONE DAY...I will have it in MY means to do something for a friend... Until that day...thank you all so much! I found it extremely hard to type this and to take it all in, that I had to step away from the computer many a times to cry. You guys just don't know how humbled I am by this. God Bless you all and I love you!

14 comments:

JenRaff said...

Glad to know your feeling loved!
Off to check out Joni's blog hop!

Sarah/WAstamper said...

Keep your head up Gabby!! And keep those fab creations coming. You're an inspiration to us all!

Kym's Crafty Cards said...

Gabby, I am sorry to hear about your mum and the way your family have treated you. Unfortunately the saying is true "you can't pick your family". My husband has 3 brothers and 2 sisters and they all have step-children and since they came into "our family" they have been treated no differently to the other family members and will continue to be treated as such. You should never have been treated any differently to a normal sibling but people can be so cruel.

I know what you mean about people on blogs. I don't have friends as such as I've been ill on-and-off for so many years and people can get fed up of that but bloggers have given me unconditional friendship which can never be replaced or forgotten.

I truly hope things get better for you. Take each day at a time. Hope you didn't mind me leaving you this message. With my best wishes, Kym xxxx

Rhonda Miller said...

Gabby, you are so worth it. When you reach out to others they reach back. Your good karma is just coming back to you as you said. Good things happen to good people.

Hugs,
Rhonda

~*Joni said...

Ohhh Gabbbbbyyyy! You are making me cry!! This was just a little something letting you know how much we all love you! You were worth every minute of the planning, every email sent back and forth between all the sistahs. We were going to call it the Blog HO-p but I didn't want to offend anyone. LOL!
YOU were worth every effort Fabby! We love you, I LOVE YOU and I know that this too shall pass. MWAH!

Anita Hovey said...

Gabby, I barely "know" you, any my heart and prayers go out to you. Joni and Katie are two of the most amazing generous people I've met in blogland and if they have done this for you, then you must be sooooo worthy! It is heartwarming to see the blog/stamping community come together to help you in your time of need. I'm crying too :) You reap what you sow...and you've obviously sown some damn good friendship seeds somewhere along the way! Please take care!

yoorah said...

The communication may be virtual but the love and affection is very real Gabby!

Laura Jean (LJ) said...

Hey Gabby you know I ((HEART)) you to pieces! Continued (((HUGS))) and prayers to get you and your wonderful family through whatever obstacles might get thrown in your path.

julie said...

Gabby, your words really touch me. I'm so glad you feel loved by this!!! It's been awhile since I've been on scs, but you're always in my thoughts. You're so amazing!
Love, Julie, jag_bug, friendly ho

Su G said...

whats the use of having a stable of ho's if we don't stand by each other?
You have inspired much of my work, you have shared your art and soul with us and for that I thank you.

WickedPixie said...

Gabby, I am glad to call you friend. I have been and will continue to send good thoughts your way - you deserve good things to happen to you! :-)Traci

Lynda Nielsen said...

awwwwww, Gabby... I don't even know what to say.... Bless your heart! You are an amazing.... Wonderful person, and yes you DO deserve all of this....
Great Big Hugs, and lots of prayers too!
Lynda =)

Robin Perry said...

Gabby, I am SOOOO glad we were all able to help you, both financially and spiritually. You are an amazing woman!

Sheri (a.k.a PaperCrafty) said...

Gabby, I am so glad that we were all able to gather and do this for you!! We love ya!! (((SUPER BIG HUGS)))